My mom is coming to visit me at school! I'm so excited Jonathan is in Dallas for the weekend on an R.A. Conference, so I'm here all by myself D: But my mom will be here at two, [it's currently 11:54 am for me.] We're gonna go shopping, and I'm finally going to get my own hoodie to keep me warm this winter X3 I'm also going to get my septum pierced, I found this really great place that does them for $10!! I'll post pictures tonight <3 We're also going to Olive Garden X3 bring on the fattening cheesy pasta! And AMAZING Black Tie Moose Cake.


On another note, I just looooove the holiday season! As a child, I never really got to celebrate any holidays because my father is a Jehovah's Witness, this being my second year away from home, I get really excited once October comes around, you've Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas all at once, though I'm not a huge fan of the cold, it just wouldn't be the same without the gray cool skies and the red noses. Jonathan says I'm a geek because I love just walking around walmart for hours looking at all the seasonal stuff. I can't wait to get my own place so I have have seasonal parties and decorate my house all neat. I'm carving a pumpkin for the first time EVER this year, and then my friend is going to cook the seeds for me. I can't wait, I finally have a job this year, so Christmas presents are going to be EPIC!

Monday after noon I found out a very good friend of mine died in a car accident at 2 that morning. I found out that the driver was a guy I dated in middle school, I found out that he was drunk... I found out that there was a third guy in the car, I found out that he ran because he was drunk and underage... I also found out that if he had stayed and called 911, Choo would still be alive...

I found out a lot of things this week, and non of them were good. I HATE Taylor Moser, he's an asshole for driving drunk and I hope he rots for a long ass time, but he had just gotten back from serving in Iraq, so he'll probably get let off easy... He killed more than just Choo, he killed HUNDREDS of people. I didn't get to go to his funeral, I'm 4 hours away at school, but I was told every pew in that church was stuffed with people, and there were still people smushed in the back standing. A rainbow flag was taken to the high school, and so many people singed it, there wasn't room for anymore. Thankfully, a friend signed it for me. I found a sight that makes rubber bracelets, like the live strong and S.O.P.H.I.E. kind, I ordered 5 rainbow ones that say 'Choo' for a few very special friends of mine.

I'm going home on the 24th and I'll get to visit him then, along with a friend who died a few weeks earlier after losing a battle of obesity. Too many good people died this year, so many lives will never be the same...


RIP Choo, I'll miss you so much, DDR will never be the same without you.

I've gotten two more masks to replace the one I broke last semester I plan on taking nice pictures of them soon. I got a freaking tablet!!!! I'm so in love with it XD but I have no idea what to make with it o__o School starts again on Monday, I'm kinda excited, I don't totally hate any of my classes this time, and I passed Psychology last semester which is good ^^ This semester I'm taking Computer Illustration, Basic Illustration, Composition II, Design Communication II, and Digital Publishing I. My tattoo finally stopped flaking XD and I've been saving up pictures for a tattoo new feature, and while doing that, I've become more obsessed with sleeve tattoos and have started planning mine out ^^ My mom told me I looked like I should be pregnant so I'm going to start busing my ass at the gym, I'm going to be damn hot by spring break XD uh, I think that's just about it o_o I just wanted to post an update so I didn't have to look at that 'stupid emo kid' one every time I came to my page XD

I've been so down recently it's utterly ridiculous.. I keep thinking it was a mistake to come to college while I was still so young, and I miss all my friends. I only have two semesters left though, this makes me really happy, sad and super worried all at the same time. I'll be done and be able to get out of this town, maybe even get out of Texas, but I'll only be 18, with no prior work experience, trying to get a job in the corporate world, yeah, good luck with that. But if I do find a job, I can't get the piercings I want and I can't dye my hair how I want, I don't want to lose who I am for a job, but I'll need the money. I think I'm having a serious identity crisis, it's so stupid though, I fear I wont have enough time to have fun, but I'm only fucking 18 and I've only been 18 for two and a half weeks...

I'm so stupid.